im back...

Yes, im back. I haven't written in this for about a year, crazy.

Well, lately my life has been very hard. Since Ron has left for college, I really don't know what to do with my life. Seriously, days come, days go, some are so fast, some seem like they will never end. As I start my weeks I start out with no hope of anything. I start out with nothing to look forward to. Last year, I never wanted to miss a day of school because I would get to see my baby's face all day. Now, I have nothing, I don't even have a date to look forward to, of him coming home. I sit at home on the weekends, hoping someone will call me to do something... but this past weekend on Sunday I realized I was actually getting used to being home. I was okay with being on the computer and doing my homework all day. Then as soon as I realized that, it sucked, and I wished that Ron was here to spend my "not long enough" Sundays with. I find myself wishing that he could take me to school, but even though Zach and Chase take me to school, it makes me happy to be that much close to Ron. (sad i know...) I hope he comes home soon. I can't stand having to beg him to come home, but I feel that if I didn't he wouldn't come home. He loves it so much up there, and I'm so happy for him, but seriously I think he has no clue how hard it is for me. He has all his friends, partys, tonnnnnnnnns of stuff to do, why would he even think about me when he is surrounded by beautiful college girls, beer, and friends....

Im so scared. He may find someone he can relate to more.

Im so scared... he may find someone more beautiful...

he may find someone he loves more...

he may find someone to... make love to because Im not there.

The Last Kiss, is not, I repeat, not a good movie to see if your boyfriend is away at college... it makes you scared. It's girls that her that make you scared... make you scared to death that he will find someone better.

I just wish I had something to look forward to.

come home please.

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hello darlings!

three cheers for completing another day of school!

im sooo excited about the yearbook!!!!! ahh!

horray! tomorrow is friday!

friday=candra's par-tay

saturday=hanging out with ashleigh

sunday=haning out with ron, hopefully

aww poor ron, today he had to go to school. ahh! i can call him, he's out!!! yesterday he took me out to lunch to crazy fish <33

umm well i guess i will go.

bye darlings!

<3 Wendy

i dont think things are going too well...

today has been shit. yep waste of a day.


whatthefuckever. i mean, i invite you over, and you just blow me off.

i feel like shit.

arghhhhhhhhhAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel weird. i have a weird feeling. my stomach hurts. i dont understand.

"oh my love, oh my love i can't hear you my love, tell me where have you gone? oh my love, oh my love, i can't taste you my love, tell me what have i done?"

is it me?

<3 Wendy

wow school has been okay so far. except for the first day that i had to go to fricken aerobics "we're gonna dance girls!" and there was nooooo air, it was soo e-fing hot. I couldn't even stand being in there with out Britany i thought i was going to cry, i went to the bathroom and just remembered us fixing our hair in the mirror and joking around.

my shedule was totally screwed up though, i had three classes and two i had already taken and i didn't have a fourth period. so yeah, but that's fixed

first semester:

1. Chem Honors - Mrs. Knight

2. Creative Writing- Mrs. Brandon

3. Liberal Arts Math- Mr. Campbell

4. Yearbook- Mrs. Hitchcock

second semester consists so far of... algebra 2 with mrs. wallace, the most horrible math teacher ever, yearbook, and ap english with mrs. shick, oh yeah and i haven't go another period because i have to decide what to take.

by the way. im loving ap english already. NOT! we have to read books when we aren't even in the class yet, and that isn't including the ap summer reading i still have to do. luckly i get to turn it in, in the spring. horray! we are reading of mice and men, aren't i lucky! Actually I'm kinda excited about ap, all the people from like 7 + 8 are in that class!

well.. i better get back to work. sorry it's been a while since i've written.

leave some love <33

x Wendy

well, i've actually been enjoying myself this week/weekend. Im glad im not just sitting at home moping around because ron isn't here. I have to live it up because next week is school. BLAH!

so... friday night i went out with amber to the mall and saw alan, drew, and trevor, then amber left me to go out with her brother. Drew and i went out to matt's to take him home and we saw his beautiful classic car. "it even smells old!" haha Then alan and drew ditched me to go to aarons, then... saturday i stayed home and went shopping with my parentals. Sunday was the show and i got a bit tipsy but it was really fun, only after five was awesome, and i met a bunch of new people, but you know me i suck with names. Alan was suppose to call me, but of course he ditched me again. Yesterday I went to the mall with Ashleigh and Liz and we met up with alan and aaron and all we did was gossip. Then Ashleigh and I remembered that the Laguna Beach Premire was coming on at 10 so we all went to my house and had a Laguna Beach Party. Fun times, fun times. oh yeah, and ashleigh and i have decided we have turned ghetto fab. uh oh. oh yeah. and for the third time this week i was ditched again. but other than that. this weekend was oh so wonderful!

Ron just called, he is having a good time too.

OHHH my mom got a job interview on wednesday... everyone wish her luck pleaaaaaaaaase.

Friday night or saturday I'm going shopping with amber and my mom.. horray for school shopping. i must buy jeans, i need jeans!!

Alrighty then, i will talk to ya kiddies later..

holla back!

oh yeah... KRISTIN ROCKS MY SOCKS!